Monday, September 12, 2011

"It is better to be hated for what you are than loved for what you are not."

I'd like to begin by saying that things are crazy right now. I'm not even sure "crazy" quite covers it. While I don't really care what people think about me and the decisions I make, there are a few things I'd like to clear up:

  • My relationship with Justin is over. Yesterday, today, and forever. The only reason you need is that things got way out of control, and I'm capable, as an adult, to make that decision.
  • I'm not currently in a new relationship, as some people would have it believed. What you don't witness with your eyes, don't witness with your mouth.
  • I love my church family, but I'm experiencing some internal conflicts about Meridian Woods. If I don't show up to things, it's not because I'm upset or lost in anguish or falling from God, I just need some time to reorganize my thoughts and find out what He wants for me. Thank you, in advance, for being patient with me and understanding if I need space.
  • Don't classify me unless you're going to put it into one of these categories: independent, strong, faithful, reckless, loyal, or brutally honest.
The term melodrama refers to a dramatic work which exaggerates plot and characters in order to appeal to the emotions. We all (most of us) get caught up in the excitement and "newness" that gossip and theatrics bring to us rather than considering who it will hurt, or how it will make us look as an individual. Rarely do we think twice before we open our mouths to spread rumors, or my favorite: things we believe to be true. But by that time, we're already sucked into something we had no business getting involved in. If you're desperate for half-truths or fickle, immature cliches, write a book. I might even read it. Just stay the hell out of my life.

I think that's as much rant as I can muster. Happy Monday.

5 comments:

nathanalbert said...

Great post! We are definitely praying you as you approach this new chapter in your life. I totally understand the whole needing your space thing, but if you need some guidance or some people to bounce ideas off of, you know where to turn to.

Samantha said...

Thanks Nathan. I love you guys.

Cara-Marie said...

Sooo as you can see I'm playing ketchup...
I thought I had a lot going on smh
That's why we can't afford to be wrapped up in our own "little" world
I can honestly say
That I empathize with you. I'm going through something similar...especially with the church I have been attending here in Gainesville. To be frank even though I'm not by myself much I was feeling really lonely. Turns out its all been God's doing. I can't pray against this. This isolation has been issued and ordered by God. That thought although comforting doesn't make this place more comfortable. It hurts. Growing up & surrendering all to God is not easy.
However, I am encouraged & you should be too because change and transition is good and necessary. I heard a preacher say that Ruth could not stay in Moab because that's not where her destiny was. "When other people are comfortable where you are its not them its you...and you have to go. God's preparing you for something else."
I don't mean to insinuate that for you its a physical going or transition but nevertheless it is a transition that you may have to experience alone - you and God. Of course do not neglect godly counsel but know that when God removes your crutches its because He wants you to clutch to Him.

You can do it! I'm rooting for you girl!!

Samantha said...

I love that quote. It's so true. And I definitely feel that in my life all the time! I'm constantly being uprooted from things that I love, but the change always opens me up to new people that need influence and guidance. He has a way of creating a new passion in me that I didn't think was possible. I'm thinking about doing a mission trip. Maybe when you graduate, you could come along? I was thinking of doing it next year for a few months.

seespeakshare said...

I'm in there!! LOL. But seriously...God's willing I would love to be a part of something so wonderful no value can be placed on it. Let's work on something =)