Woo! Day 9! I've dragged myself to class today after a stormy weekend; I meant that figuratively, but this morning's rain puts a damper on my joke. (Ha!) I wonder if it bothers people to hear me chomping away on my organic baby carrots (ooooo.....fancy!). It always bothers me when I can hear people chewing. Hmm. Justin came home last night. My heart was racing. I was hurrying to fix my lip gloss in the mirror as I was pulling into his apartment complex. I just wanted everything to be perfect. My thoughts fast-forwarded to images of him coming home from a long deployment; I would still be making sure my lip gloss was perfect.
I've finally been able to put my fears about Paul to rest, and drink in the sweet satisfaction that relaxation brings. Granted, I'm still way behind on my work, but I feel much less anxious. Not to mention, two whole nights of Jenna-free dreams.
The fast is still going strong. I've had plenty of urges to break the fast, but I close my eyes, take a deep breath, and remember why I'm doing this. I could just as easily be satisfying my hunger, but I took on this fast as a sacrifice to my God; a sign of my love and dedication to Him. I shall not falter! I've made it past the first week. The next thing you know, it will be Day 22 and I'll be listing the enormous list of food that made it into my mouth that day....and a list of the best plastic surgeons so I can get some lipo for my newly acquired GUT. (LOL.)
But for now, I'll just sit here eating my carrots.
Can I reiterate that I'm really, REALLY behind on everything? I'm taking a personal weekend (aside from the fact that most of my Saturday is dedicated to soccer officiating and most of my Sunday is spent with God) to catch up on my course work. I have a test next Tuesday, research to do, papers to read, assignments to turn in, data to collect for neuro.....and I've been neglecting it all to spend nth amount of time at church, with Justin, and at work. Let's get it together, Samantha. You need to get back to a good balance. Justin won't be happy to hear that I'll be abandoning him this weekend, but I'm falling behind near the brink of graduation. Speaking of which, my GRE needs to be taken, and my grad school application essays need to be finished. Sigh.
On a side note: Angela Boone advises that if you want to spice up your life, switch deodorants. This makes total sense. I have like four different kinds. Whichever is closest to where ever I am at the time, I use! Hmm. Maybe too much information. Oh well.
I would like to take a minute to reflect on the lives lost in the last 48 hours. If any readers haven't heard, 11 police officers have been shot both in Miami and in St. Pete. Please include their family and friends, and this nation in your prayers. We are reaching dark days in which Satan's numbers are increasing; God be with us all.